"HEADS UP TEAM !"

I'm deathly afraid of taking my last step.
In other words,I've probably got to leave my favorite country.
I know my doomsday is creeping up on me.
It will not be long before it arrives.

I just can't stop wondering what my life in my home country
is going to be like?
I can imagine that I'm going to be a castaway or a goner or
slime or a hobo or a beatnik who is spineless,jobless,penniless,
and brainless.
What I imagine scares me half to death.

I think people sometimes have to leave precious moments behind.
There is no doubt but I'm going to miss many things.

I realize how empty my life is without my favorite TV shows,
such as Family Guy,Little People Big World,Intervention,SpongeBob,
The First 48,Scarred,Miami Ink,Dog Bounty Hunter,Pimp My Ride,
Take Home Chef,Honey We're Killing The Kids,Supper Nanny,Next,
The World's Most Amazing Videos,The Ultimate Fighter,Fear Factor,
Gene Simmons Family Jewels,Rob & Big,Ice Road Truckers,Dallas SWAT,
South Park,Mind of Mencia,Whacked Out Sports,Robot Chicken,
Dirty jobs,Mindfreak,etc.

So,do I have TV shows I like in my native country?
Here is a brief answer.
"Yes,I have just only friking one."
"That's SekaimarumieTV!!"

I know it's hard but I've got to accept my fate.
Anyway,what I'm trying to say is if we don't think about the cold,
it's not going to be so bad.

P.S. I'm proud of my way of living.(Maybe)
I just want my life to be more interesting.(I'm sure)

My life has to go on,
whatever it takes,
until my eyes close and my last breath is taken.